Releasing the ‘Me’ into Silence
One thing that I’ve noticed lately is that although a ‘self’ no longer exists, the ego-mind’s lone remaining trick is to keep the body-mind tied up with MUSIC now, of all things. Music! with all of its abilities to affect ‘my’ moods. This has been going on for a long time. I’m sick of it. The intention has arisen to find the Silence and Stillness underneath the music and make it permanent. I know It’s there, what else could be aware of the music arising?
Fortunately, long ago I received a gift. There is something called the ‘unstruck sound’ or ‘anahata nadam’ (unstruck sound in Sanskrit) that is said to be the sound of the Om vibrating the Universe. Or, in laymen’s vernacular, the sound of God vibrating in/as/through the Universe. Sometime around my 24th birthday in 1979, I started hearing this sound which, is not really a sound. (No, it isn’t tinnitus and doesn’t interfere with normal hearing. It’s like a very high-pitched, electrical, G-sharp note that plays constantly.) It was curious and puzzling at first. Because I was an evangelical Christian at that time, I called it the sound of the Holy Spirit but, told no one about it. After all, I lived in a cult in those days and only the leaders could pronounce truth. The rest of us were to be ‘sheep’ and were taught not to use our own discriminating awareness: so that we wouldn’t notice the difference between the Truth and the lies of the leaders!
Somewhere around 2000 when I was 45, I finally read what that funny no-noise sound was in my inner ear. Yup, ‘unstruck sound’ or ‘anahata nadam.’ The instructions said to use it as a meditation focal point and, said it would be a speedy way to ‘wake up.’ It certainly helped!
Today, I’m realizing that listening to that ‘unstruck sound’ moves me into thoughtless awareness quickly. I’m also noticing that it pulls me in deeper, the more I listen to it. Eureka…a way into inner Silence. Inner Silence is to be commended….all of our pre-existing patterns eventually disintegrate there and we are open vessels for the Mystery to do with, as It will.
How will you find your own way to Inner Silence and lose your ‘me’ too? I’m guessing you’ll love it when you do.